Friday, March 17, 2006


Today was one of those days when I felt like the chasm between me and God got small. I took my tuna sandwich and parked my car at the boathouse down the road and watched the gulls and the sparrows and the wind in the phragmites. I read my bible and drank a diet coke. And listened to the Christmas half of the Messiah and found myself on the verge of tears.

Later, I had an hour of solitude, so I took my bible and went to bed. I just got through Daniel as I drifted off to sleep. In my dreams, I had a conversation with God. I came to with these words in my head:

" I have such a longing for that girl that I was before. I long for her to know you. "


see-through faith said...

profound thought. You are the same girl though - just the sin is forgiven.

Rachel's Big Dunk said...

I am not sure I am the same girl. It feels like having a relationship with Jesus has changed me profoundly. I guess I feel compassion for the person I once was. Life was so hard not knowing Christ.