Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Decompression

I am finding it hard to be motivated to do much of anything this month. I don't feel like cleaning my house. I don't feel like working at my kitchen tools job. I go through the motions around chores. All I want to do lately is read my bible, take naps, and play my djembe, surf the net for new and interesting campgrounds on the Cape, maybe study Vietnamese for our trip.

Maybe it is because the activity level for a stay at home mom with two-little-boys-who- refuse-to-go-to-summer camp is high over the summer. For three months there is very little time to myself. There's lots of relaxation, but it is always syncopated with the kids activities.

So, lately, I am in what my friend Emily refers to as 'receive' mode. I just don't really want to DO much of anything. I just want to BE.

I got a bruise on my palm while playing my djembe last night.

5 comments:

Amy said...

Rachel,
In seminary that time gets labeled "self-care" and it releases you from condemning yourself as lazy. I am in the same mode, unable to get quite started in academics and not even sure if I want to- I wonder if the summer with the kids is part of my issue! That is a great excuse. :^)

Much love,
Amy

St. Casserole said...

I have times like this. I worry that I'm not getting "enough done". What does that mean?

I don't think we can live at the same tempo through the years.

I hope this time ends up feeling like a blessing to you.

So cool to have a djembe bruise!

Lauralew said...

It is a wonderful thing, to just be. Enjoy.

Mary Beth said...

I'm just barely hanging on for some reason. Glad I'm not the only one. I figure, if I DO hang on, I'll have succeeded!!!

Rachel's Big Dunk said...

I don't know what it is, you guys, but I have talked to others, lately, who are in the same boat. I pray that we all have peace during this time of barely hanging on.

Could it be the middle of Ordinary Time? I wonder.

Lord, in your mercy, hear our prayer.